its weird how much I hate her right now. it isn’t even her fault. Its his. But how come I start to feel a little bad for him.. and miss him , when he’s the assshole. He’s the fucking problem. But I don’t hate him or act like I hate him as much as I hate her. I hate her so much like you have no fucking idea. Lately, I’ve beeen comparing myself to her. Hmph so in person she looks like a man, talks like a man, and has a manly moustache. On the computer, she looks okay. She’s photogenic and edits her pictures I guess. & I’ve beeen asking a bunch of people ‘whos better me or her?’ , ‘who has a nicer body me or her?’ , ‘whos prettier me or her?’ . They all said me, ofcourse. Haha that sounded concieted but yah. Maybe they just picked me to make me feel better. But I personallly thhink that I’m better. I think she’s a slut. But were all sluts, in one way or another. I know I’m kinda slutty. I’m slutty for loosing my virginty at 15&ahalf to a guy that seemed to care, but obviously didn’t. She’s a slut because I say she is! She’s a slut for taking him. It wasn’t even her fault tho. He talked to her. He wants her. Him and her. =’( . Part of me is hoping thaat in the near future, he’ll be like rob kardashian and ill be like that cheetahgirl. He’ll feel bad for cheating and begg me hellla and misss me hellla and regret everything. While I’m happpy, not giving a fuck about him & being with someone so much better. it was weird how yesterday on aim, he asked to be friend and I said no. Then he asked if we’ll ever be together in the future. Like when were adults… & I said no. But I know I shouuldnt be with him. And I don’t want to be. But I kinda do? Like. I don’t know why I feel like he can change when I know he can’t/won’t. Why am I so attached? Why him. Why me? WHY HER -_________- . I’m sorrry for being mean and stuffs. I’m just broken hearted… but ill get over it. I know I willl. Expect more of these sad/emo/jealous/brokenhearted posts. =(